I checked the date today and realized I had only been back from home for a week. It feels like I had not been home for a month and missing my son so bad.
Is it time that plays tricks on us, or is it our brain?
Sometimes a memory comes into mind, and I would feel it happened just yesterday. Other times I would feel it happened a lifetime ago.
Sometimes I wish I could relive a memory, not just recall it. Like how my son as a toddler, looked at and listened to me when I sang to him, as if I was the most entertaining person in the world, and he was my number 1 fan. Or how he would stop playing and run to me to hug me while I was busy in the kitchen.
Other memories I just want to erase, the same way you highlight a text you’re typing (Ctrl-A) and then press delete. Save. That quickly. But the irony is, the more you want to forget something, the more it rankles in your mind. Memories like these are hard to forget. Is there ever a way to forget?
I don’t think you ever forget. It’s a case of managing the bad memories. I think they can fade, but then they can suddenly also come back with vehemence.
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